Monday, March 28, 2011

How The Struggle Began

I was always a skinny thing who could eat you out of house and home for the first 23 years of my life. Even after having two children I was thin. (I had a preemie daughter at age 18 a stillborn baby girl at age 20.)  I was a lean, tanned size 7.  Then I met the man who would be my love, my life and my forever companion. He still is today. But the first year was financially hard and we lived on love, beans, taters, biscuits and gravy. After the first year of marraige I had went from the 120's to the 160's , but hey, he had gained about the same. No dancing on weekends can really make a difference. But we were married and in love and I finally had a butt. But when I got to the 170's and didn't lose it after 3 more years, I started walking and cutting out fat. I walked and walked and dieted and really did good. My goal was the 130's. But when I got down to 140 I started getting sick. I thought I had overdone it but in actuality it was God blessing us with our own child. He was two weeks late and I was miserable. I walked in to have him weighing 207. That's a 67lb. weight gain. I stayed swollen after bringing him home and had terrible headaches. Found out it was high blood pressure. Then I found out that I had hypothyroidism. I lost down to 180  and then 2 years later, I walked in the hospital at 211 to have my second baby boy. That was 14 years ago and I have been on yoyo diets, lost and gained, lost and gained the same 20 pounds over and over again. This past January I was 207.4. Feeling indigestion and depression about my big ol' belly and knowing that I am not getting any younger, I started eating better, lost 7 lbs. on my own and then joined Weight Watchers on Feb.14, 2011 for the third time. But this time is different. I have committed my struggle with weight to God and I know that HE is my strength!!!! You see, I was leaving God at home when I joined the other times. I have created my own Food journal that includes Scripture, A Daily Food Diary and a Prayer Journal. I will continue to blog and share my journey until I reach my goal. I hope you will join me. As I write this, I am proud to say that I now weigh 186.6. Thank God!!! I will get there. 150 here I come!!!

1 comment:

  1. So happy to read your very first blog entry! And I cannot wait to read about your inspiring journey!